Hey there,
So as weird as this seems, this is my first blog ever. Anyway, I want to share with you guys cause I miss you all and it has been a tough transition. I really wish I could tell you all in person because that's how it used to be....and i tend to blabber on and on when I am writing so please bear with me.
Living in Calgary is pretty good. I haven't been here long and it's been kind of rough getting to be okay here. It's awesome because Bryson family is awesome and although I hardly see Sarah, cause she works nights and I work days, it still is great to see her when I do. Basically this is going to be about Nick and I...we have been talking and it's wonderful. I can finally say that I have "feelings" for him. Over the eight month period I couldn't show him that I loved him and for 2 years prior to that, that's how we were used to showing eachother that we cared. So in going from 2 years always being able to see eachother to not seeing eachother at all was tough. Obviously.
We have spent some time together and it has been awesome. We are finally becoming friends again and our love for eachother is growing. It was definately a tough year, all you guys know that, but I am so glad that we persevered through it because now our relationship is wonderful.
But, I have some decisions to make. I need prayer. It sucks driving back and forth every weekend and I'm not sure that I really want to if I don't have to. I can either move to edmonton or stay here, but if I really want my relationship with Nick to work then I know I can't go on living away from him for much longer. So, if you guys could pray for wisdom, patience, guidance and strength in our situation that would be wonderful. This is kind of a cry for help because I really don't know where I'm going to live, work, or get the money to do all of this so to be honest, I am really struggling.
That's it. Thanks for listening guys.
Kidd
So as weird as this seems, this is my first blog ever. Anyway, I want to share with you guys cause I miss you all and it has been a tough transition. I really wish I could tell you all in person because that's how it used to be....and i tend to blabber on and on when I am writing so please bear with me.
Living in Calgary is pretty good. I haven't been here long and it's been kind of rough getting to be okay here. It's awesome because Bryson family is awesome and although I hardly see Sarah, cause she works nights and I work days, it still is great to see her when I do. Basically this is going to be about Nick and I...we have been talking and it's wonderful. I can finally say that I have "feelings" for him. Over the eight month period I couldn't show him that I loved him and for 2 years prior to that, that's how we were used to showing eachother that we cared. So in going from 2 years always being able to see eachother to not seeing eachother at all was tough. Obviously.
We have spent some time together and it has been awesome. We are finally becoming friends again and our love for eachother is growing. It was definately a tough year, all you guys know that, but I am so glad that we persevered through it because now our relationship is wonderful.
But, I have some decisions to make. I need prayer. It sucks driving back and forth every weekend and I'm not sure that I really want to if I don't have to. I can either move to edmonton or stay here, but if I really want my relationship with Nick to work then I know I can't go on living away from him for much longer. So, if you guys could pray for wisdom, patience, guidance and strength in our situation that would be wonderful. This is kind of a cry for help because I really don't know where I'm going to live, work, or get the money to do all of this so to be honest, I am really struggling.
That's it. Thanks for listening guys.
Kidd
posted by Anonymous at 5/15/2006 04:05:00 p.m.
4 Comments:
Holy crap Kidd, you totally have my prayers! One thing you must realize is that if you truly believe that God wants you and Nick together (and I know can tell through your words), like for real-for real, then He will have His way!!! Paitence is the hardest of all the traits of God to follow. I can say this with open honestly. I have been 'waiting' for someone for 5 years now. Yeah it hurts at times, but God cannot lose his love for me, its impossible! Hope things work great. I'm praying for you always!
Dios te Bendiga*
Hey kidd it'sgood to hear from you. Life sounds pretty crazy. anyway sounds likeyou hav some big decisions to make. I'll try and remember to keep youin my prayers. Anyway i think if you decide to move you should wait until you have a definate job lined up. Anyway like I said good to hear from you-Andrew
yeah Kidd's posting!!! Im sooo happy you did kaleo!!!!
I donno if you ever saw me go through any "transitional" stuff at camp... for all those who have time on their hands (cough derkson) refer to kaleo 2 archives in june when i came back to camp and ran through the woods blubbering in my rbs (rubber boots) and pjs to the badkes, where i preceded to break in and go cry in the arms of auntie Laurie. while in the process waking up downey who was sleeping in bens room and who at that point in time i didnt really know. apparently it was discovered today in a phone conversation that downey isn't a light sleeper... he is a cautious one. ha ha)
so yes what your feeling is normal for coming out of kaleo. They will be intense. Sometimes intense loneliness, especially when your in your room alone after being with 3 roomies all year. Sometimes intense longing, for crazy adventures. Its weird but in some ways your body and spirit is grieving and for a lot of us we never really have grieved before... and its different when you are not grieving a person but a thing.
Bible school is life changing if you let it be. I was talking to my older brother about it and even he (he went to the capernray) had difficulties being back in the world.
So what your feeling is normal in the sense that a lot of people go through this from ywams to capernays to longterm missions trips. But whether the intensity of it is more so after doing kaleo and if thats a good thing who knows. The kinks of the program continues to be worked out as it ages. ) Anyhoo i digress
Kidd you know i think your awesome. Im so gald we got to do program last year together and work at the beach. Being the only two girls down there for the most part we really had a lot of fun. haha and chrissy too that was great. YEAH YOU DID!!! Yeah GIRL. ohh golly
so i will pray for you and nick and for Gods guidance. cause i really like and respect the two of you alot as individuals and as a couple and that Gods will will have his way. I care about you kiddo!!!! Call me anytime!
Thanks Kesler! I love you too. I miss you so very much and I hope I can talk to you soon. I do think about summer a lot and how much fun it was. I hope that we get a chance in the future to hang out. It seems like forever ago that we actually hung out. Anyway, thanks for your prayers, I miss you like crazy. E-mail me sometime if you want. And oh by the way, you are going to rock at ness. Take care of the kaleo girls! My roomie Mariss!!
Love you.
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