Here's Phillips...
Well, I thought for all the times I've read the blog, I should probably put something up. The reason it's taken me a long time to post something... well, I'm not too sure. Maybe it's because there's hardly anything new with me... maybe it's because I don't know what to say... or maybe it's cause I knew I'd get super-emotional if I tried to post something... kinda like how I'm getting now.
Well, some smaller stuff... like Charissa, I haven't been able to find a job yet. Hardly anyone will hire someone only for two months... and yes, I'm being honest. So I'm also volunteering at the school and the church... I've already done a 'service day' with each. I'm connecting with my friends here, such as my friends that I went to Mexico with, and a few college friends (one of them went to Briercrest, and she's going to Columbia next year). I'm finding it difficult to explain Kaleo: "Umm, it's a program for one year with 28 students, and it's a partnership with Briercrest and Qwanoes... blah blah blah". I'm kind of disappointed with myself... please pray that I'd be able to somehow share this experience.
And of course, I'm all alone... there's no one here beside me. It's kind of getting to me now... someone wanna make a suprise visit to C.R.? I know I'll have camp in about 6 weeks... man, it's getting tough to write without crying... but I can hardly handle it! The only thing I share with Kaleo now is a view of Mount Washington and Mount Albert-Edwards. I even stopped the car driving home to show my sister where we slept in snow caves, and where we hiked to the top of a fog-covered mountain. (Oh yea, I got my N!)
Well, enough moping... bottom line, I can hardly handle it. In other news, the first church sermon I heard was completely subjectional... my parents and I discussed / kindly argued over the usefulness of that sermon. Even my dad said the sermon didn't make him think. That's just one of the many Bible conversations we've had since I've been home. Last Sunday was much better... Mr. Buhler (the school vice-principal, the guy Andrew knows) gave the message. The message was about missions, but thankfully he also threw in some 'social justice' stuff. I was very thankful for that... but then again, I'm feeling really burdened about that kind of stuff at the same time. Almost everything feels guilty, from buying an Ice Cap, to eating a large meal that my parents have prepared, to changing my clothes every day. I don't know what to do with that... anyone else having the same problem?
Well, I guess that's about all for now... I REALLY REALLY miss you guys... feel free to take a road trip from Qwanoes or Victoria and come up here, I'm sure we can provide accomondation or something... no, never mind about the road trip, now I'm being selfish. I'll see some of you guys in six weeks and four days. Bye... no... see you later!
Well, some smaller stuff... like Charissa, I haven't been able to find a job yet. Hardly anyone will hire someone only for two months... and yes, I'm being honest. So I'm also volunteering at the school and the church... I've already done a 'service day' with each. I'm connecting with my friends here, such as my friends that I went to Mexico with, and a few college friends (one of them went to Briercrest, and she's going to Columbia next year). I'm finding it difficult to explain Kaleo: "Umm, it's a program for one year with 28 students, and it's a partnership with Briercrest and Qwanoes... blah blah blah". I'm kind of disappointed with myself... please pray that I'd be able to somehow share this experience.
And of course, I'm all alone... there's no one here beside me. It's kind of getting to me now... someone wanna make a suprise visit to C.R.? I know I'll have camp in about 6 weeks... man, it's getting tough to write without crying... but I can hardly handle it! The only thing I share with Kaleo now is a view of Mount Washington and Mount Albert-Edwards. I even stopped the car driving home to show my sister where we slept in snow caves, and where we hiked to the top of a fog-covered mountain. (Oh yea, I got my N!)
Well, enough moping... bottom line, I can hardly handle it. In other news, the first church sermon I heard was completely subjectional... my parents and I discussed / kindly argued over the usefulness of that sermon. Even my dad said the sermon didn't make him think. That's just one of the many Bible conversations we've had since I've been home. Last Sunday was much better... Mr. Buhler (the school vice-principal, the guy Andrew knows) gave the message. The message was about missions, but thankfully he also threw in some 'social justice' stuff. I was very thankful for that... but then again, I'm feeling really burdened about that kind of stuff at the same time. Almost everything feels guilty, from buying an Ice Cap, to eating a large meal that my parents have prepared, to changing my clothes every day. I don't know what to do with that... anyone else having the same problem?
Well, I guess that's about all for now... I REALLY REALLY miss you guys... feel free to take a road trip from Qwanoes or Victoria and come up here, I'm sure we can provide accomondation or something... no, never mind about the road trip, now I'm being selfish. I'll see some of you guys in six weeks and four days. Bye... no... see you later!
posted by Jamaicamon777 at 5/09/2006 10:22:00 a.m.
3 Comments:
don't worry about it. God has something bigger out there for you.. you just need to find it. i have been praying for you daily, i know it can get hard at home and hard to talk to someone about your experiance, but i will try my best to do whatever i can to make it better. And i will always try to help you out, just stay strong.
AMEN Shannon! Your awesome! oh and by the way Philips, you got it worng my brother, your not supposed to be able to explain just what happened @ Kaleo, you spoed to explain how it changed YOU! Kaleo isnt school, Kaleo is community, love and friendships, Kaleo is God! He ruined your life and made you into the MAN you ARE today!!! Dont explain it how the brochures do, explain from the heart, bring about curiosity, only then will God really Bless both you and EVERYone you share with.
Prayin for ya Bro,
Hey Phillips. Don't feel to guilty, you can't change the fact that God for some reson unknown to us has put you in comfy North American context just don't let it affect your judgement. Anyway keep it i hope you find a job-Haws
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