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Well hello there everyone. I hope all is well. I am posting to request prayer from you all. As the wedding is getting closer and closer, justin and I are starting to think that we should elope instead. We're not going to, only because I want a wedding so bad. I have been stressed to the max for the past three weeks. Not being able to sleep, having nightmares and just living at home. I love my family, but I can't stand living here anymore. I really don't want to get into it just because I don't even know what I would say. Justin and I have no money really to afford a wedding. I think my parents were going to give us some to help us out, but I have decided I do not want any of their money, for various reasons. Though the words that people tell me about helping me plan the wedding and support and crap, I have yet to really experience that, especially from my family. Like I said, I love them, but I am feeling so hurt by them as each day goes by. I really want prayer for I don't even know. My parents are starting to charge me rent for living at home. Which really sucks because Justin's parents had paid off all of his loans so that we could save that extra money for the wedding and now I will be having to pay it anyways. I started packing my things today, I don't know where I am going but I don't know if I can live at home anymore. I feel alone on so many levels. My relationship with God is, easy way to say it is non existant. I have had so many things to deal with and frustrations that I need to talk to someone about and just someone to talk to, and I think that not having a relationship like that this year is what really made it easy for my relationship with God to slip. I love him and praise him and believe everything, it's just dry, and so much harder without that christian group, support group like we had last year. I could really go on forever and I know that I really only ever post when things kinda suck and I'm sorry. I really don't want to burden anyone with my life, and I have no idea of how to even start talking to someone.... so I come on here because it's easy. Anyways if you could pray for me that would be awesome. I know this really doesn't let you know what happening in my life. But I just want the next four months to go by fast so I can be married. Because being engaged has definately brought up more frustration and disapproval than it did support, and I never expected it to be like this. Please pray for me, in ways you feel appropriate. I love you guys and I miss you all so much. God Bless.
posted by Charissa at 2/01/2007 04:48:00 p.m.
6 Comments:
Yo dude. I'll CONTINUE praying for you guys. Don't rush life. You don't want to look back and wish to re-live a day...well because you can't. peace
Hey guys, I remember having these nightmares that the wedding was taking place with only the prep we had done to the time I was having the dream (like, no tuxes, or we would go to say our vows and realize we hadn't written any). I think it's probably pretty common to engaged people.
My real concern is that (also like many other couples) you seem to have this idea that your wedding will change everything, that once married everything will just fall into place. Not so. Life carries on very much like before, except that you don't have to say goodnight to each other and drive away.
So whatever sucks right now needs to be addressed right now. It's like thinking that you can build up debts all summer and they will all go away when you you start school. Family, God, life - please don't let the issues ride until your wedding day. Today is the day to reconcile with your family, do business with God and recover your joy of life. Marriage is not your Saviour.
I hope your wedding day will be marvelous. But it's just a day. My prayer for you two is that the next few months you will not focus on preparing for one day at the cost of preparing for life together. You and you and Jesus - that's what matters here. Praying for you.
Jim you have a special way of stating what i can't articulate. Engagement is a time of planning and preparation that is a key foundation to the marriage ahead. Couples need to take this time a grow closer together while continually pointing each others focus to Christ who is the head. So that as they grow up as a couple they grow into Christ. Take this time and use it for more than just external preparation for the day ahead but use it to prepare for a life of love and service to each and a life where you are continually pointing each other to Christ and giving him the glory. These are some of the things that i have been thinking about during Kirsten and I's engagement.
Blessings on you
Parker
Thank you guys. I really appreciate the advice. Already today I have had some good God time and things have changed. Not in my life but in my heart and it really does make a difference. Deciding to let go of bitterness and things that I am holding onto, wow I feel better already. God is good, what else even matters? I have been transformed in like the matter of an hour and it's so cool how God does that. Keep praying because there are things I am still having to deal with and try to make right. I appreciate you guys so much. Love you.
Hey Charissa,
One thing that I have experienced is my best friend during her wedding. She wasn't the easiest person to be around because she was so stressed. Instead of laughing and hanging out, having fun like we thought it would be the few days prior to the wedding, I found myself wanting to not be a part of it. I know it may be hard, all she asked for is support...like you, but as for me on my end, I didn't know what help or support she needed. So one day she just said that she needed me to be with her. Not to help do anything, but just for me to be there while she finished the final touches. If she only would have asked me in the beginning EXACTLY what I needed to do then I would have been there. Most people, I think, want to help you, like your family, but they don't know what that looks like. If you need a shoulder to cry on, or just someone's presence while you are completing a wedding task, just tell them straight up what you need them to do. I hope that helps. That was just what I saw when I was trying to "support" and "help" my friend during her wedding. Even though Nick and I were only engaged for about 6 weeks and didn't really spend over $500 on the actual wedding I can still relate. I know that we have not really talked and I am so far away, but if you need to vent and want to burden someone...my email is...nickandamandamuik@hotmail.com
Hope to hear from you soon!
Thank you Kidd, I appreciate it alot!
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