Life and stuff.

So pretty much, life sucks right now, and I miss all you guys so so much. Since I've come home from camp it's felt like the end of Kaleo all over again, only worse. I've been sitting here on my mountain for a while now feeling very far away from all of you and absolutely lost and confused about what God's trying to do with my life, but now I'm beginning to think that maybe he's been telling me where I should be heading for a while and I'm only just starting to really listen. Youth pastoring has been in the back of my head for so long, but I've always been way too scared to actually consider it for real (marrying one being the obvious solution), but I reached this moment a few days ago where suddenly I couldn't picture myself doing anything else with my life. I want to work with youth, I want to have a job that's all about God, I want to spend my life making disciples... So, as of now at least, I'm planning to be a youth pastor. GOODNESS! Women in ministry... that's not how it's supposed to work!!! But I guess that's up to God, not me. Yeah, so today I kind of decided it was time to stop being stubborn and actually admit that God is using all the crap I'm feeling lately to put me into a place I needed to be... That doesn't mean I have to like it, though. It just means that God is good.

Thanks so much to you guys that have been praying for me lately. Please don't stop, I still feel like crap, and I'm still not doing that great at all... actually, I'm kind of a mess, but I can see God working now, and that means a lot.

Oh, and the other bit of news, I'm planning to go to Briercrest in January (I love you Kailey).

-Charis.